The desperation is calling and we both know you don’t have the strength to ignore it. Denial is the one constant you have in your life. It’s always there for you. you can’t jerk off to vanilla porn, it’s just not relatable for you. No matter how hard you try, when you close your eyes you can’t imagine what he feels. Can’t picture yourself in his shoes. Getting laid is just not an option for you, but denial is. Denial has had such a profound impact on your life, it’s total rewired your brain. This is the only way you can get off now. Down on yours knees in agony. Maybe you’re wishing for a different life or maybe you’re wishing this would never end.
